Light at the End of My Tunnel

As soon as AJ's chronic infidelity was revealed, I started "nesting". It began with redoing the master bathroom. Out with the original 80's wall paper, up went a fresh coat of paint. My time on pinterest paid off as I framed out the mirrors and spruced up the space. I'm am very pleased with the results. Then when he moved out, I immediately took all of what he left behind, packed it up, and donated it to a charity. It felt good to purge.

It didn't take long before my kiddos began "nesting" too. They cleaned out their bedrooms, rearranged, and created their own oasis. Got painting, replacing light fixtures, and finding a comfy chair for CF still to accomplish. But they feel like they have created their own space.

Then that bled over into the rest of the house. After 20 years of holding on to stuff, we gathered up what had accumulating in our attic and basement and today had a profitable yard sale. (It really seemed like angels were sent to buy our stuff.) All that was left was picked up by a charity. It was exhausting but we all feel a sense of relief. No more clutter. No more lingering reminders. This is our house now. Our little family of three. Huge steps toward healing!

My order also arrived today, My Single Mom Life by Angela Thomas. Her book, Do You Think I'm Beautiful?, was used by God to minister to me greatly six years ago when his infidelity began. I am looking forward to how this book will minister to me as I adjust to my new life. I've found a support group to get involved with and will begin teaching 4yo Sunday School (love that age!) tomorrow.

My first week, when I hadn't gone more than a day, of no anxiety. What a blessing! Feels like I will live again. Feels like I am taking steps to move on with my life away from the chaos. Finally, Light at the end of my tunnel. Praise God!

Ps 18:19 "....He rescued me, because He delighted in me."